My Love, My Heart, My Dream...

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know was left open."-John Barrymore




Wow what an awesome day!! I couldn't have asked for a better life full of friends and family and an amazing fiance that i am truely truely blessed to have. Going back to work today was scary because lately i had been feeling kinda left out of the circle, like my hard work and determination wasn't enough and i was getting down on myself. I had been sick alot since starting my new job and was beginning to wonder if it was going to get the best of me. Seemed like no doctor could pinpoint what my oh so many symptoms were stemming from and just trying to treat them seperatly was not really making me any better. I just knew that there was this one thing wrong and it was causing all these symptoms but just didnt know what that one thing was. Thanks to a very understanding and patient PA in the ER several weeks ago they found a cyst on my ovary and since having my surgery to remove it I have felt like a whole new person. I dont have to worry about my back hurting all the time or having to pee every five seconds and i can concentrate better on my work. So when i came back to work today i really didnt expect to feel anymore a part of the group than i had when i left. Boy was i wrong. It seemed like everything was totally different and everyone was so excited to see me back and they let me know how much i was missed. Such a great feeling to feel needed and to be missed!! Totally made my day! Then to come home to such an amazing boyfriend that i adore so much made my day even better. How i ever got so lucky to get to spend the rest of my life with Sean, i will never know. Guess i had to go through all the years of being with the wrong person to finally see how great it is when you find that perfect person. It just makes me appreciate it even more!! So sitting with my baby we are watching The Bachelorette and i see how great Jillian and Ed are together and how lucky they are too!! It's the best feeling in the world to know that you get to be with the love of your life forever and that is what Sean is to me!! He makes sure i am taken care of before anything else and makes sure that i have whatever i need that makes me happy. And i feel the same way about Sean, i want to make sure that he has everything he hopes for in life too!! I truely feel God has blessed me in this life, i have made poor choices in my past and suffered the consequences for them but in the end i was still selfless and gave myself up for someone else and for that i was rewarded. Sean is the man i always dreamt of and never dared to ask for, and when i feared i would never have that person he walked into my life as though he was always there. And in a sense he was...we had known each other from a distance and came back together when the timing was perfect. God did that and i am so thankful everyday that i have him. Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didnt know was left open!!